Tuesday, June 8, 2010
10:29 PM
maybe its not you
its my character
thou i CAN simply just force myself to forgive anyone when they apologise
i dun wan that to happen cos i dun wan you others to think that
'its okay if she is angry. she jus having a bitch fitt and will be fine when i just say sorry and talk to her normally like nothing ever happened.'
I HATE WHOEVER WHO HAD THAT CROSSING HIS/HER MIND
also, i know this is a bad habit or wateva u call it
but whenever i'm upset or disappointed, no matter who,
i seriously dun feel like replying any sms or answering any calls
cos i just cant bring myself to do it without picking up a fight
cos the fight will eventually lead to something worse
i nvr dare to get angry and shoot at anyone cos i know we would end up in a fight
and somehow they would shoot back and me and the focus shifts to me
while i try to debut, i was said as defensive
but honestly saying, i do not deny my error, just that i nvr admit in words
and i sounded defensive probably cos i was trying to tell you the part where you were at fault which normally turns out totally forgotten cos the final sentence would be on my error
and i sounded defensive probably cos i was trying to tell you the part where you were at fault which normally turns out totally forgotten cos the final sentence would be on my error
thats why
i'd never dare to breathe a word about all these to the other party
cos i scared once all these all out, they may jus fed up and leave
or else it will be a fight and the evil cycle continues.
so in the end
i swallow down all the unhappiness. even if you say: wat u not happy? say!