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Designer: MINHUI

11:46 PM i planned to go bangkok with jeff this march
after much reserching and planning, i'm really excited to go and shop to my heart's fill.
thou i dun noe much but going with him makes me feel safe cos he is street smart enuff and i known him enuff already
so i asked my dad for consent just now
and he dun agree for me to go


not that i dun have a way to it
i knew if i argue with him and cry
he'll say go lah go lah go lah
but i seriously want his understanding
that i'm all grown up and he could give me a chance to prove i can survive
so i really didnt took that as a serious answer frm him
he gave me the reason that i am not mature enuff
and he is worried, no parents is fine with kids going so far away
but to parents, a kid is always a kid
if he never gonna let me, when can i prove it to him?
he said i'm not mature
but all of you who noe me well will noe if i'm mature enuff to at least go bangkok or not



i tried to explain
if you give me the chance, let me go and i come back safe
you know i'm capable of surviving on my own
but he say go lah. u go loh... den u go loh.. but not in a serious enuff tone!
mum say den why ask us since u insist on going?
they dun understand that wat i want is an acknowledgement
i plucked up my courage to ask them cos i hope to get an acknowledgement frm them
that they see me a an adult and worthy of a chance to prove myself



den my dad give the other excuse on you mus understand your fren well
wat kind of person is him....
they jus dun trust that i can take care of myself!
not that he is worried but he dun trust me!
he dun trust me
he dun trust my eyes, how i choose frens
i've known jeff for 4 years.
i believe i hav an eye for analysing characters and understandin others
couples or not, i believe 4 yrs is enuff for me to believe he is a good person
esp he is one who once bared his heart for me.


wat does my dad noe abt me seriously?
come to think of it, not bigger than the tip of an iceberg
since its quite difficult for him to understand me immediately
i hope i can get a proper agreement frm him this time
so he can come to understand me better thru this