如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事


我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你


Designer: MINHUI

9:53 AM

9:15 AM

here's what i've been up to lately...

10:29 PM

maybe its not you

its my character

thou i CAN simply just force myself to forgive anyone when they apologise

i dun wan that to happen cos i dun wan you others to think that

'its okay if she is angry. she jus having a bitch fitt and will be fine when i just say sorry and talk to her normally like nothing ever happened.'

I HATE WHOEVER WHO HAD THAT CROSSING HIS/HER MIND

also, i know this is a bad habit or wateva u call it

but whenever i'm upset or disappointed, no matter who,

i seriously dun feel like replying any sms or answering any calls

cos i just cant bring myself to do it without picking up a fight

cos the fight will eventually lead to something worse

i nvr dare to get angry and shoot at anyone cos i know we would end up in a fight

and somehow they would shoot back and me and the focus shifts to me

while i try to debut, i was said as defensive

but honestly saying, i do not deny my error, just that i nvr admit in words
and i sounded defensive probably cos i was trying to tell you the part where you were at fault which normally turns out totally forgotten cos the final sentence would be on my error

thats why

i'd never dare to breathe a word about all these to the other party

cos i scared once all these all out, they may jus fed up and leave

or else it will be a fight and the evil cycle continues.

so in the end

i swallow down all the unhappiness. even if you say: wat u not happy? say!

4:40 PM i suddenly felt my enthusiasm to blog being revived after browsing so many different blogs at work ytd.
some blogs were really entertaining n picture-filled that i feel my passion burning inside me
asking me to do something abt my dead blog
i also chanced upon numerous dead blogs that went
"shud i stop blogging?" "i'll be back!!"
and there were gone forever.
and that reminded me of mine
worse still i din even say i'll be back. hahaha
but seriously i v lazy to blog cos i lazy to upload all my photos.
for those who noe me, or even if you dun, i always take a lot A LOT of photos.
and i lazy to even upload on fb which happens to have a v convenient bulk browser uploading system
needless to say upload one by one on blogger. or bulk upload AGAIN to photobucket den copy link back here again.
that the main reason why my previous posts were mostly words n words only hahaha.

anyway if you are wondering why i was browsing blogs at work,
i'm seriously doing my job kay..
i'm supposed to filter the list of 900 blogs given to me to find out lifestyle, photography and food blogs
mostly for the company. (dun wanna type out the name yet JUST IN CASE it comes up on the search engine haha)
so i browsed ard 150 dead or alive blogs with quite a few very well written one.
make me feel like adorning my dear blog with tons of photos again haha
for now i got nothin to put. maybe i'll start with a bit of camwhore bah? hahahahahahaha


after that i got not much more to post cos i haven been taking picts recently
except for the performance at maha mongallana












will be switching to wordpress bah. =S not sure.

1:09 AM whee~~! dead blog! dead blog!
this was how agnes commented on baby's long decayed tagboard.
i guess its quite suitable for mine too...


i'm currently working in jobsdb right now~
NO. it is not a recruitment agency
all it does is to post job seeking advertisements
therefore, (omg i miss the three dots shortform)
recruit express n all the other shity recruitment agencies are OUR CLIENT
get it? haha


i'm in a new department, Openrice.com
which is solely operated by me and another lady, Melissa Lim.
no. not the previous mel.
a new n better n prettier mel.
(NOTE TO SELF: PLS INSERT PHOTO HERE)
work a bit busy, no, hectic.
cos we have to finish wat others took one yr or more to do,
in 2 months.

i'm in charge of hiring n coordinating the data-collection callers and photographers
den passing n failling the datas n photos to use n pay for
den sorting out the data n photos to match
den organise their paychecks


interesting to be able to be a part of a whole new start up
which will become a huge name in few months time
(FYI: openrice.com is top 50 most popular website in HK, earning up to $1.3 million per year)
i just hope that this initial data n photo collection can progress smoothly
so we can move on to the launching n events side of the project


however, things hadnt been smooth.
callers are slow n results are not good
maybe due to the payment
but we changed a new payment system, so i hope it will get better
also, thou photos from evon, xj n david are all in,
majority of the bulk (8500/10000) are with jin's team
who havent been giving good standards with the photos


i'm not blaming him for the bad standard
cos melissa gave them too much at one go so they had to divide the task to many other ppl
who might not be as skillful as some. (v obvious digi cam reflections)
i dun mean that digicams cant take good photos...
for instance i'm quite happy with wat my cam produces (thou i dun mind a better one seriously)
but the standard of the photos taken by the digicams are really bad. =S


and they've been postponing the submission of the photos for too long
boss not happy le, keep asking abt the photos
so i really hope he can come in with GOOD n PROPERLY RENAMED photos tml.


so besides monitoring the callers (including new sit in ones starting tml)
i still have to sort photos
and quickly process the paycheck (lots of overdue ones)
and also prepare call lists for new incoming attachment kids on tuesday.
not forgetting to recruit more callers. zzz
and did i mention? i seriously HATE chasing ppl for stuff.



omg lord, allah, deity, guan yim ma
haiya i dunno lah!
i only pray that everything will go smooth this month
and quickly pass the data collection stage



anyway, baby is in thailand now
last week le. no. last 5 days.
(i not sure i blogged abt this before liao not)
he finally coming back on friday night!!!
yea!!!
so many places i wan us to go tgt!
n things to do tgt!!!
cant wait.. :D
and shortly after his return will be his ORD le... on 11 June.


oso, i still thinking of starting blogshop
(yes i noe i say for v long le)
but maybe now's the best time to start.
so i can have more pocket money flowing in during uni hehe


ok i realised this is a very long post with words n no photos.
and no i'm not suggestin i'm gonna post some photos now
cos now is 1:37AM and i need to sleep cos i have a pretty long day ahead.


nites!

11:44 AM work is fun!
okay luh not exactly fun as in forever playing
but i work with pretty cool ppl
they are all nice and fun

esp my boss, Melissa (the new and nice melissa)
since there is just me and her in this whole new department
i assist her in her stuff and we discuss just like fellow colleagues
i sit next to her and we talk abt bf, nails, shoes, laugh at the photog's photos
just like good friends
thou she studied in the states for quite long
she doesnt go all arrogant abt having high qualifications despite being only 23yo
thou i only worked with her for 2 days
i already feel comfortable working with her
we even shared a huge seafood n beef tom yum steamboat pot for lunch ytd
and dinner tgt too!
here are some photos and pict of melissa
i din edit cos i too lazy and jus dragged from my phone




she pretty right?
her skin so nice. those no pores, powdery smooth kind
and she really good in dressing herself
motivate me to try and dress up too
hahah training and trying all diff kinds of style i can match up
not to compete with her lol



we gonna have a lot of things to do this coming week
vetting thru photos again
recruit and train telemarketers
manage them to make sure they work at home
collate data
blah blah


did i mention i looked thru 5000+ photos one by one this two days?
hahahahaa
its pretty much wat i do at home i noe
but at least i feel happy looking at the pretty photos i took
some of those photos really damn jialat cos some are non pros
but poor them, they gotta go back to the various places to retake those photos



met baby later at night to watch clash of the titans in 3D
so heartpain cos he kena 3 extra while trying to slip out of camp frm the seminar
to meet me
den i asked if he still wanna meet cos i was still outside at 9
"yes i want to meet you."
"i'm dying to meet you."
hahhahha
silly boy
him cheeky when we at starbucks

i bought a pairs of shoes and shorts while waiting for him
and he's like "ahhhhhh!!!!!! dun spend anymore!!!!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!"
cos i always buy stuff while waiting for him hahahahah
den he rushed down to jp from camp
and paid for another pair of heels that i loved =S
both are nice n not impulsive okay.......................
they're comfy......................


den we sat at my void deck
and chat frm 230 to 5
"i liked that. the quality time together."
so i'm glad i suggested chorchor to crap

6:24 PM haha seems like i've abandoned this blog.
cos lately things have been quite stale..
everything that ever happened are also recorded down through picture
which gets uploaded onto facebook
or never
haha


things that are on my mind recently includes:
-finding a job that pays well yet is not too far
-whether or not i should teach tuition
-i still have yet to clean up my room


but the most mind-cracking question that i have in my head now
is
WHERE DO ALL THOSE BLOGSHOP OR BUSINESS PEOPLE GET THEIR SUPPLIES!?!?!?!
ESP LOMO CAMERAS!~~~~~~~

there must be a way to get cheap and reliable supplies from SOMEWHERE
in order for them to sell
i'm sure they must be earning quite a lot from it or else they wouldn dare sell such things with such high costs
take example: would you choose to sell
(A) apples that cost $1 each at $2
or
(B) cameras that cost $99 dolla each at $100

both earns u only $1 but one with a higher cost
obviously you would sell the cheaper one cos you no need so much capital right?


so i do believe they earn quite a fair bit frm selling those cameras...
disagree with wat i said above?
u din get wat i mean. hahaha
cos i myself think that the example above is horrendous.
oh well. its for my ranting anyway. hahahaha


anyway, i'm broke.
very
thats why i stay at home everyday
hope i find a nice job soon

2:51 PM i noe its been llong....
and yes i've been to bangkok with baby and back already
and yes i haven upload photos yet
and yes i'm no longer working hhahaha
as to why i'm no longer working,
i shan't elaborate on the big unhappiness with concern to treatment frm my dearrrr boss.


tot i jus came here to update a bit
haha
no intention on putting up photos cos blogger so mafan when uploading photos.
=S
sorry blogger




been doing uni applications these few days
i'm done with ntu and nus for now
so i'm jus left with sim today
the application so mafan loh
need a lot of weird infos


so after i finish my application
i move on to uploading photos
while i clear up the room
den i shall concentrate on sending resumes

baby's outfield now
=S

10:49 AM ytd was chingay @ tampines
and i casually mentioned to angela who lives in tampines
AND SHE RMB!!!!!!
she came down and waited for my performance!!
omg so sweet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gosh cant tell you how much i love her.
ever so sweet and obedient.
she will guai guai do everything you ask her to
everything oso "okay!"

like there was once i ask "can do night shift not....." "oh. okay loh."
"cos yao take leave so mus work with me.." "OKAY!"
hahahahahah so cute right

mus see to know how cute she is
eg: she continues trying when i refuse put the food in her mouth
so she will follow the fork and continue trying hahaha den puff up her cheeks when she fail hahahahaahahhaahahahahhaha


OKAY BACK TO YTD.

den we went to mac to eat ice cream so i can rest a bit...
baby smsed me say wanna wait for me
but it would take 1 hour for me to reach home
so he told me he go home le
DEN
i caught the last train back home while smsing him
AND
caught the last bus back home
AND
when i reached my void deck and checking my mailbox,
somebody suddenly hug me frm the back!!!!!!!!
omg scared the wits out of me
and it was him!
baby!
hahahahaahah
he is so sweet! (though he scared me to death)
he waited at my void deck for 2 hours!
jus to make sure i got home safely.....
(and to think i was eeeeeee-ing him when he said he miss me when we were sms-ing on the train


okay for now i got quite a few things to do
---upload photos to facebook (and its a lot)
---dye my hair
pack my stuff for bangkok---

12:36 AM yes. those who are here to seek the answer.
i'm in a relationship!!!!
with who?
jeffrey. hahahahahahahaha
yes. again.
who say cannot patch after 2 years. lol


actually we all along v good frens
but got closer lately, giving each other support and all
den sunday was our anniversary frm last time
so we went out
and i had to go: "dun you have something to say?"
"happpy anni.... ?"
*=.=*
"no~~!!!!! aren't you gonna ask me to be your gf again??"
"OH."

hahahahahahaha
i kinda planned it to be official on sunday by asking that lol.


i love you baby.




now another fear that i have, is my guy frens that may leave me
i love all my frens like i always say
but i scared they will avoid me cos i hav a bf
I STILL WANNA BE FRENS LIKE LAST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STILL THE SAME ^_^
PROMISE!

1:49 PM HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love chinese new year not onli becos of the angpow, the family reunions
but this year, its also becos of the long weekend i'm getting
finally can rest and hav fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and also, my dad let me go bangkok with jeff le!
friday jeff even met my whole family cos he came to help me bring stuff back home from work
so apparently saw my erjie and jiefu
den came home, i so hungry i got him to cook. haha
so dad n mum came home.
den dajie jiefu and yingxuan too.
so everyone saw him in one day
lol


the funniest thing is, i dad always had the impression that he is fat
so the moment he left that night, my dad said
this is last time that fat fat one meh? i rmb he fat fat de leh
now so skinny and tall liao ah
hahahahahhahahaahah
thats good. good impression i guess.
den my mum complain
why your ah boy never come bai nian huh.
hahahahhahahahahaha



tonight's gonna be a good night.
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